♥karie

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2008-05-17T15:51:23Z

i dunno what is wrong with it? i seriously don't. i tried to reason it out with you but you don't bother listen to it. i cried and did you care? you care at the moment but you don't freaking understand why. and so this problem will never solve. i can't blame you for getting worried but i told you i am old enough to do things the way i think it should be. why can't you trust me and let me be? it's not as if i am still a five year old kid. i'm twenty this year. i can be sure i know what is good or bad / right or wrong. i know the consequences for doing something bad. i know i shouldn't do this, this, this or that. i know it all. why cant you even trust me. i already given up talking to you regarding this. it's just a waste of time. it's not my fault if i try to talk to you nicely and let you know what i think but you don't freaking bother to understand. please don't compare me with anyone. i seriously hate it when you try to compare me with anyone, telling me i should be like them. wtf. why should i? am i suppose to be like them and be someone who you think i should be? i hope you are able to read it. i hope. all i want is you to trust me. is it that difficult?
i must admit my attitude isn't good, but i am trying to change. there's so much things i wish i can say it all out but you see, the invisible restriction is there somewhere. believe me there is restriction everywhere. it's a fact!

wondering

2008-05-15T15:24:14Z

dear diary,

eventually i gave up on the idea of getting the Zen Vision:M =( . after much consideration, 30Gb is really too much for me and i guess it will be rather expensive too. perhaps getting Zen V Plus will be a better choice. shall shop around this coming weekend.

i'm feeling tired. spent 3/4 of my working time doing filing and rearranging the files. i need a good sleep after updating this. went to bf house for dinner tonight. after dinner i fell asleep thus explained why i got home at 10.45pm. =x

i seriously need a good shopping next month.
the thought of shopping makes me happy (:

i don't know why =/

good night~

loves,
♥karie

babypink

2008-05-13T15:09:34Z

dear diary,

isn't the mp3 nice? baby pink and it's 30gb. XD

i've been thinking of buying a mp3 and this is really nice. i have not check out the price in the stores so i'm still considering which mp3 to get. i've been thinking of getting either a ipod nano or creative mp3. this 30gb mp3 must be very expensive but it's really pretty~ =( anyone want to sponsor me? wahahaha

and above is the organizer which my sister bought for me. an early birthday gift from her. LOL yes i know it's super early. =X the organizer is really really pretty.

Oyasuminasai~ (:

loves,
♥karie

十分愛

2008-05-10T18:48:18Z

dear diary,

i just cried.

today bf came over my house in the afternoon. he went out to look for his friends in the evening and i started looking for songs online. just happened that i link to this song, 好心好报 by Alex Fong [方力申] & Stephy Tang [邓丽欣]. it's a cantonese song and i simply love this song when i first heard it at some karaoke pub. got it into my handphone and i started listening to it everyday. honestly i only know how to listen to cantonese provided if it's not too fast or too tough. to sing it, is a challenge. LOL =x but eventually i manage to sing it without looking at the lyric or listen to the song. (: though there's still some mistake here and there but i think it isn't too bad.

and after that, i saw a few other songs sang by the same singers. yup duet songs~ one of it is 十分．愛. fell in love with this song when i first heard it. now i'm trying to learn how to sing. =x and here comes the reason for why i cry. it's because i watched the movie 十分愛. XD it's a Hong Kong movie and i guess the song that i heard is for the movie. both singers act in the movie. and the guy is REALLY REALLY handsome. wahahaha. the movie is quite funny at the start. i really laugh out loud. but until the ending, something happened and i started crying. =.= overall it's alright, i just don't like the ending.

anyway the movie is in cantonese. can try searching for the show or song in youtube.

it's going to be 3am. dearest bf should be out with his friends now. hope he enjoy himself.

good night~

loves,
♥karie

perhaps

2008-05-09T16:43:08Z

before i start..
audrey please get well soon. i don't think i will appeal for it. if you are still not feeling well, please get well soon and meet me~ (:
shermain next monday i should be available. will sms you again k. shall call the rest along too. (:

dear diary,

today i was doing filing for most of the time. boring. met up with bf, Malcolm and Joyce for a movie after work. the movie was at 8.20pm so we had our dinner at Taka pepper lunch first. after that walked back to Cineleisure and the two guys were playing pools while me and joyce were chatting. (:

told bf i was thinking of working at RH as a perm staff and take a course at a private school. i am still thinking about it. i will need more time.

anyway, we watched Speed Racer tonight.
it was kinda boring at first but it starts to get better as the movie goes on. certain parts are funny and i like the small kid in the movie. ^^

[fill in the blank]

2008-05-08T15:18:05Z

dear diary,

currently i'm having this no mood feeling. oh well really is no mood. not happy, not sad, not angry, not ... yes any mood you can think of, i have none now. =.=

today was alright, work is the same everyday, time pass by faster and faster. before i know, it's already time to go home~ after work went to bf house and have dinner at the coffee shop below his house. with him around, i just get to laugh around. got home and saw NTU letter. i expected to see "i regret to inform you....." and indeed that was the content in it.

mum said something. i expected her to say that and i seriously don't bother about what she say.

bf was saying i should have chosen something related to my course rather then choosing those tough ones. i agree, but i did choose my course related course but failed to get in too. see what i can do~ ya i will.

i just need sometime to sort things out.

loves,
♥karie

i am just kidding (:

2008-05-06T14:35:57Z

dear diary,

i'm feeling tired these few days due to my menses. everyday just feel like sleeping, regardless it's at work, on train or at home. sleepy mood. =x work is getting "easier", i remember how to do most of the stuff so i don't need to keep asking around. was feeling feverish yesterday, glad it went off after a night. i seriously don't want to fall sick.

anyway..

email will be reply soon~ =x

sis, i'm just kidding. you get what i mean huh. please lah study hard~

deary~ i misses ur hug (:

my five sisters, when can i see you girls again?

to anyone else who reads my LJ, stay happy~

loves,
♥karie

day out

2008-05-04T15:31:47Z

dear diary,

i will never shout again at anyone [please don't force me]
i will never walk away from someone again [please don't let me cry]
i will never hang up anyone's call anymore [please don't hurt me]

above definitely doesn't happen to anyone who reads my LJ. perhaps there's only one.

don't understand? then don't bother about it. i will not explain it anyway.

was out with bf and stam today. stam is really a funny guy. it's fun to have him around. XD bf bought a guitar. and stam went home after that. both of us carried on with our window shopping. (: saw a really nice guy's top at Zara. and i actually saw quite a lot of pretty heels but i reckon one pair is enough so eventually i stop the temptation to get anything. after Marina Square, we went over to Suntec and lastly came back to my house.

it's been really long since we went out for some shopping like this.

i'm really really tired now. good night~

loves,
♥karie

emails

2008-05-03T17:16:11Z

dear diary,

i like emails~ LOL you see a lot people don't have time to meet up or rather lazy. =x so email is one of the alternative to keep in touch. (:

just finished watching guess3. the last section was about guys~ interesting XD

When will guy wants his gf to be there the most?
1. birthday [4]
2. valentine [2]
3. sick [1]
4. met a problem at work [3]

what do guys hate to be criticize on by his gf?
1. not good with sex [3]
2. no future [1]
3. petty [4]
4. childish [2]

what thing do guys hate his gf to do for them?
1. apply nail polish [1]
2. dig ear wax [3]
3. cut finger nail [4]
4. squeeze pimple [2]

which is the best place that guys will want to be with his gf on valentine day?
1. five star hotel [1]
2. own house [2]
3. girlfriend house [4]
4. in the wild [3]

which cosplay costume will guys like his gf to wear?
1. nurse [2]
2. qipao [4]
3. air stewardess [3]
4. high school uniform [1]

the [no.] beside the choices are the ranking among the four choices chosen by 1000 guys in taiwan. i guess it doesn't apply to all guys and since this survey is done in taiwan, it might not reflect on singapore guys. BUT some of it is quite TRUE. lols.

i'm off to sleep.
nite~

loves,
♥karie

if you're not the one?

2008-05-02T17:45:47Z

dear diary,

current song~ If You're Not The One by Daniel Beddingfield

was looking at some of the Xfactor video on Youtube and i heard Shayne Ward singing this. i believe it's an old song, a very nice one. (:

thinking of updating something but i don't know how to put it in words. =/ ask me if you want to know? lols~ jk i might not remember it after i sleep. it's really weird how things can have two sides. good and bad. i miss him yet somewhere in my heart i hope to be alone. i want to do a lot of things but there are always disadvantage and reasons for not doing it.

anyway i really think i should expand my social circle. i should right? (:

saw this on tv. relationship between the boss and a rat.
boss >> husband >> wife >> child >> dog >> cat >> rat
everyone has the unexplainable resentment with them, they always got it from someone and vent it on another person. not only human has it but animal has it too.
understand? haha.

~~self-control? how long can it last? is it really necessary? =(~~

loves,
♥karie

=x

2008-05-01T15:43:34Z

dear diary,

i am really trying, please tell me you see it. =x

tuesday i took off from my work just because of my house phone. =.= cant be bothered to explain why. anyway it's a great day for me. no work and bf came my house to accompany me since it's his off day from school too. XD he brought fruits for me. his mummy bought it and tell him to give me. (: *the mango is really SWEET* had our lunch together and bought vegetables home to make salad. i simply love my day with him. haha.

and yesterday is just like any other normal day. after a whole day of work came home and spent my time with him. anyway i was watching those video online which teach people how to massage. LOL yes i am learning. but it doesn't seems very good. hehe.

well as for today, it was a great day too. lols. went to the market and had our brunch together. the chicken with porridge is really NICE. haha. after that went to Jurong Point and watched Iron Man. there's really a lot of people outside GV. =.= i'm glad we have booked the tickets online the previous night. overall the movie is nice. seeing how easy can it be for someone to build the suit out. and also how weapon can both be good and bad at the same time. by the way i almost cry for one of the scene. =/ bleahs.

i told myself to sleep early but i'm still here updating my lj. =.= time for my sleep. nite~

loves,
♥karie

i'm sorry

2008-04-28T17:13:47Z

dear diary,

first i want to say sorry to my dearest =x i've been making a fuss out of the small little things. i know i am being stubborn and have always been so bad temper and i also know you have been bearing it. thanks for everything. (:

last few days were bad for me since i've been moody. i'm glad he's always there. start of the week was great. no monday blues, and there are work for me to do so i was not feeling bored or anything. weather for today was really hot. i was actually sweating when i'm just standing around. =.=

went to cineleisure to look for bf and his classmates. they bought tickets for "Harold and Kumar 2 - Escape from Guantanamo Bay" and i joined them after my work. the movie is really funny. see it and you will know what i mean lols. anyway it's a M18 show. (: awaiting for Iron Man and saw the preview for What Happens in Vegas before the show started. it should be a comedy romance movie, seems great to me. haha.

a half day for me? hmmm

loves,
♥karie

only when..

2008-04-24T13:33:01Z

dear diary,

today RH was having some award ceremony. HR department was the one organizing so i'm there to help out too. wonderful 3hours plus or more was spent there including having our "rounds" of lunch there. lols because there's buffet provided for those award winner and people attending so we had our lunch there. a lot food was left over thus we were having our second and third round of lunch. XD today was fun.

shall watch some show before i go to bed. i'm tired~

shermain~ i'm not good at all. i dont know why. sigh~
weiting~ i know you will not see this but you know the more i think, the more i realize how pathetic is the pay for working at RH. kill me lah. i am going to search for other jobs. you left me alone there. =(

i'm annoyed everyday =x

loves,
♥karie

again

2008-04-22T15:50:08Z

dear diary,

yes it's the emotional period once again. how i wish i can be unaffected by it. but forget it, i always can't control my mood and end up crying or screaming or shouting or what-so-ever which is not good. =.= guess some people out there are the same as well. perhaps not because of PMS but just some stuff which got them emotional. i understand? maybe..

i know for the fact that i am not perfect. i know i am this, this and this. i know there are certainly lots of ways to change it and be better. BUT WHAT THE FCUK AM I DOING? KILL ME.

you know there are so many things which i wish to say it out. i want to voice it out. i want to tell you, you, you and you. but invisible restrictions are all over, i can't help it but be a good girl and "obey" all the invisible rules and restrictions in life.

what are we living for? or rather what have i been living for?

previously i actually posted an entry but i don't think anyone seen it. just in case anyone being so lucky to come across it, it's now private and replaced by the previous public entry.

just thought that perhaps i should post something "happier" =x
bf came town and we watched "The Fobidden Kingdom" at Marina Square. it's funny but not as nice as what i expected it to be. i guess it's a 3.5/5. bf knows the way to annoy me and makes me fall back in love with him again. well it's again and again~ overly too much handsome/pretty [guo fen de shuai/mei] (: bf term of saying people being VERY handsome/pretty. that's the end of 22/4/2008 for me.

loves,
♥karie

ignore

2008-04-21T13:44:26Z

moodswing
ignore

current song list (:

2008-04-20T05:19:34Z

dear diary,

yup new songs on the list. both songs from Shayne Ward. friday night when bf was at my house. he let my sister listened to the songs in his ipod. and there she is in love with this two songs and a few others. since i'm sharing room with her, i am of course listening to the songs from morning to night. LOL so i kind of like the songs too.

lyrics are nice (:

Breathless

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we’d say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It’d be so beautiful if that came true
You don’t even know how very special you are

Chorus

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don’t even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You’re like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You’re something special
I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you’ve given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

No You Hang Up~

You got my attention at hello
We had this connection that wouldn’t let go
There was something sexy ‘bout your voice
Anything you say makes a beautiful noise

And now we break up to make up right away
Just an excuse to lay in bed all day
I know that this thing we have won't ever change
And that’s why I have the confidence to say

CHORUS:
A lot of girls are sexy
but you know how to use it
You can keep me up on the phone all night
We say lets hang up on 3 but we don’t ever do it
Aint it crazy how after all this time
We got that you hang up no you hang up kinda love
We got that you hang up no you hang up kinda love

Verse:

Every time you call me, I wont lie
I still get the goosebumps I felt the first time
That I saw you walk into a room
Girl you hand me hooked on that beautiful view

And now we break up to make up right away
Just an excuse to lay in bed all day
I know that this thing we have wont ever change
And that’s why I have the confidence to say

CHORUS

Bridge:
And baby you still know just how to
Blow my mind
After everything that we’ve been through
It still feels right
And I know, that I can’t
Picture living my life without you

"If our love was a fairy tale"
would you charge in and rescue me?

"We got that you hang up no you hang up kinda love"
did we?

loves,
♥karie

dearest diary..

2008-04-19T08:18:27Z

dear diary,

i was sick~ oh well i just couldn't sleep due to the feverish feeling i had from 3 till 6plus in the morning. how am i going to work when i didn't sleep at all. =( eventually due to my tiredness, i did slept for like 2hours in the morning before going down to see a doctor. i waited for almost half an hour. was complaining to the doctor. lols because i went to the clinic quite often when i was having attachment. =/

he said it might be stomach flu or maybe some virus. =.= whatever it is, i feel much better now. (:
loves,
♥karie

once in a while (:

2008-04-17T15:25:20Z

dear diary,

i'm not feeling good. =( having gastric. just eaten a piece of bread and currently i do feel a bit better. hopefully i can go work tomorrow. and i want to sleep but i have to wait for a while before i can eat my medicine. damn it.

anyway once in a while having small little chats between friends are good. well able to see each other everyday and talk is also not that bad. lols.

ok i know this entry is =.= haha..
i need to sleep now~

loves,
♥karie

weird?

2008-04-14T15:43:33Z

dear diary,

sometimes i just feel that there's a need to tell others how much you love and care for them? am i right? perhaps different people have different ways to express themselves or their way of doing things. i just hope a simple sms can make the person feel that i care.
~~but it seems weird~~ =.=

topics which i always ignore or rather don't even appear in my mind because it's the last thing i want to think about. these are the things that can really make me think for days or even longer.

sometimes i thought everything is fine. i am happy. i am satisfied. yet not everything seems to be the way i think it is. things can be ugly and horrible on the other side and just because i don't see/know it, i feel that everything is good.

lols everything just doesn't seems to link to each other. yes i know. i just simply jot down whatever that comes to my mind at this moment.

a good night sleep is all i need after a tiring day. (:

loves,
♥karie

do not sleep LOL

2008-04-13T00:01:13Z

dear diary,

i really want to sleep =/

forget it, here's two movie review and a few photos~

first movie > Three Kingdoms : Resurrection of the Dragon

It isn't a very bad movie, at least i didn't fall asleep in the movie. =x starting it's alright but up till the middle part, it's getting a bit boring with all the fighting and stuff. the ending is quite touching. simply because it makes me feel like "crying". (:

second movie > Definitely, Maybe

definitely a nice show. it's interesting how the movie goes about. the guy trying to tell his daughter about his love life ever since his first love. three relationships, three disasters. lols quoted from the movie poster. it's a romantic comedy love story. eventually there is a happy ending. (:

photos
at the underground link to esplanade =x
(i'm not trying to be mean or what but my friend make me look at that person and wanted to take photo. that person really looks like a corpse to me. =.= and the sign says this "Please Do Not Sleep In The Underpass". that person is not alone k. there's many more lying around.)

and i really like this photo. (: the water is REALLY very still and the reflection of the bridge can be clearly seen. looks as if there's a walkway on the river. lols~

well you see, it's troublesome to have long hair because it takes million years for it to dry after a shower. #%#$&&*%@#%#*@#% thus i'm here to update my LJ. time for a sleep~ in need of one. (:

loves,
♥kari

blah

2008-04-10T13:12:08Z

dear diary,

i haven't get the chance to read the book xinxian lend me. =/ i started to read and enjoy reading but my laziness is still there. =.=

everyday is the same. boring work. just thought of updating my lj. LOL.

friday and saturday night. should i go?

-edited-

i love going out
YES i love going out
sudden thought of staying home is not at all a good thing
REALLY not a good thing

a very sudden thought

loves,
♥karie

thanks xianie choy (:

2008-04-06T15:48:01Z

dear diary,

i don't wish for much, just a beautiful face, a nice figure and a caring bf. LOLS XD

start of a new week AGAIN.
dreadful~

and here i want to thanks xinxian for lending me the book "remember me?". lols she actually bought the book and going to lend it to me. wahahaha i was still thinking whether to get it and there she is being so kind. went to her house previously and told her about the book. haha i don't know why i just suddenly fall in love with books.

time for my sleep~

loves,
♥karie

better?

2008-04-03T15:24:14Z

dear diary,

i honestly miss my friends. (:

after work went to JP with weiting. she wanted to get some fruits so i accompany her and bought something too. (: it's always fun being outside with someone i know. haha. anyway it's just a boring day even though work seems to be better then before. at least it isn't that bored now. hopefully it will be better as time passes.

just now my mum told me this
MUM: so when will you get your pay? you didn't ask your colleagues?
ME: why? don't need lah, it should be at the end of the month.
MUM: why don't ask? you need to have "xin li zhun bei"[mentally prepared] mah.
ME: =.=" what is that? why i need to be mentally prepared when i'm the one receiving and not giving. LOLS
MUM: also need mah. [she's a bit ps le. but still insists.]

hahaha i don't know what is she thinking. she's more anxious then me when it comes to my pay. whatever is it, today is a happy day~ lols. i miss my bf. ^^

i look weird in this photo. perhaps i should do some photoshop. hehe.

thanks to weiting for the nice dark chocolate. we both like dark chocolate. XD

oh ya before i leave my office, i told my colleague i wun be going back to work tomorrow. [i remember i said something like this] all because i thought tomorrow is saturday. =.= i'm really blur. i can even remember the day wrongly. -slaps-

hehe night~

loves,
♥karie

just tired

2008-04-02T15:30:02Z

deary diary,

just feeling tired that's all. perhaps the whole working environment makes me feel very bored. i am being honest about it, nothing much about other factors. just me, myself feeling moody.

i made the right decision to meet gary. i thought of coming home straight after work and sleep early. but in the end i still decided to meet him. like what weiting said, i miss him and i want to see him. it's far more than me feeling tired. he always brighten my day.[or rather night =x] make me laugh a lot as usual. (:

he's the reason for me to smile.

loves,
♥karie

(:

2008-04-01T15:41:44Z

dear diary,

just another boring day at work. =/

after work met up with shermain and audrey at jp. (: had subway for our dinner. yeah i like subway. haha. i simply love our chit chat session. checking out each other's life and laughing at the stuff we talked about. lols. we should really meet up often. took some photo with audrey under my request. hahaha. will upload it another time.

after that, waited for 198 at the interchange. happened to see heryanto on the bus. it's always nice seeing an old friend somewhere. (: chatted for awhile and he mentioned he applied for NTU too. haha hopefully we will see each other in NTU again. [ya provided i'm able to get in. =.=]

yesh i know it's late now. and guess what? my dad was playing game just now. keep telling me, "this is the last game.." yet he just keeps on playing until i stand behind him. lols. regardless of age, games are addicting. XD

GOOD NIGHT~

loves,
♥karie